Friday, June 16, 2006
stupidity,careless and idiot-ness can kill..
today went sentosa.. not wid my girlies but mr chang and "gang".. reach home... have been crying the whole night le.. till now onli.. i hate my clumsy-ness, i hate my stupidity, i hate my idiot-ness, i hate everything tat always make me do wrong things!! so u all should noe how was my trip le bahx..
okie lahx.. hai hao.. ytd slept at 1+ but on the bed keep on turn here turn there.. cannot slp.. today woke up at 6.. pack my things and bath and stuffs.. 7, the baby came.. had to take care of him cuz my mum wan go market buy smth.. lazy to bring him go cuz he is noisy and ma fan.. so i take care lohx.. glad he didnt make any trouble for me...
after tat went cwp meet them.. leon was late.. dots.. then we took bus to senosa.. its a long trip.. reach there at 10+.. abt 11+ then really reached the beach.. palawan again.. then put down things and play le lohx.. there comes my big big careless-ness.. i left my hp in the pocket.. and went down to the water.. when i knew it, i'm already thoroughly wet.. cuz they have been splashing water all the way.. lolx.. then quickly take up to the beach to wipe it dry.. then ask mr chang help me take care.. so tat it will be more dry.. went back to the water.. not in mood le.. scare, worried.. after tat jiu hao le..
mr chang go sentosa = waste money.. go in go bar nia.. no go play no nth de.. but i'm very sure tat we guys quite had fun lahx.. 4+ go bath and took back my phone.. heard tat its not working.. worry dao siao liao.. after tat they went to eat lunch, and i ate nth.. for the whole day didnt eat anything.. actually was hungry after the activities de.. but suddenly noe my phone in so bad state.. totally no appetite le lohx.. after tat hao duo le.. think tat i should eat smth or else later will faint de liao.. ( i faint easily) eat cup noodles.. actually the guys wan go play bball de.. but didnt in the end.. so went home le..
took bus again.. and i slept almost throughout the journey.. they say i looked like i nearly fall when the bus turn.. and they were "worried?".. lolx.. lie on kiat's hand somemore.. lolx.. he push my head de lohx.. =X haha... then i lazy to move again.. so lie on it lohx.. anyway.. its comfortable.. =X thx.. his hand was nearly numbed bahx.. sowie.. anyway, had fun all the way..? till i reach home..
my mum knew abt it le.. and she was very shocked and angry.. scolded my very loudlly.. donno y cannot control.. cry lohx.. they after tat hide in room de one corner to cry.. i donno y.. i don usually cry till so cham de lohx.. first time.. and is cannot control de... i jus had difficulty breathing.. and then jus cry none stop.. tried to stop oso no use.. then, my dad.. he called back.. think my mum called him bahx.. and he sort of "scolded" me.. cannot tahan.. continue to cry lohx.. tried to hide my voice tat i'm crying but didnt managed.. fan er kena scold say i ecerytime do things wrong kena scold will cry.. of cuz.. duh~ then don care le lohx.. jus cry in the phone liao.. after tat hang up the phone liao jiu sit on the floor.. use hair dryer blow.. tears dropping all the way.. none stop... till very very very long later then slowly stop.. lolx
eyes were red jus now.. lie sore eye like tat.. pain now... hardly can open it... haiz.. i really donno when will then i stop doing all those carelees things, tat make me fell so idiot-ly stupid??? everytime go out sure will do some clumsy and carelees things... like it is for me to rmb tat i went to tat place... whao.. wat a "good" memory...
7:46 AM
