parents are coming home today midnight..
i'm so glad.. hope will have prezzies.. lolx
ytd my da jie buay song my er jie.. complained to me..
i'm in the middle lohx.. shit you...
then so bloody innnocent lahx..
when my mum comes back i think my da jie going to complain to her le..
no peace.. bored..

sch was fine today...
got back my maths test... a bad pass.. but at least its a pass...
27/40.. i'm not really satisfied.. anything lahx..
so bloody tired today lahx.. last night didnt have a good night..
very late then slp.. cannot tahan.. in class the eyes going to closed liao..
a maths lesson got to slp for awhile.. then slp till my tummy wakes me up..
normally after i slp awhile a pain will come.. so its auto wake up de...
bloody tired lahx..

have been watching a show on youtube this few days.. very nice show..
love it so much tat i cant stop watching it lohx... its named "it started with a kiss"
if the name is in chinese i think most of u will have heard it before..
so.. tats all for my blog..


in a terrible mood today..
well.. i think i have changed... again.. and this time a real bad one..
i think i have grown from bad to worst..
i made promises to myself.. for awhile.. i did it... but it soon all gone..
i'm now back to normal.. and even worst.. i don like the me now..
but who will noe..
i onli managed to hole on to this onelast promise i made..
which is to be happy infront of pp.. ( unless i really in a real bad mood.. )
not to let pp worry..

promises tat i have broken :-
1) i promised i will change my attitude.. eg. not so bad tempered.. obviously i failed..
2) i promised i will not act infront of pp.. and i did not..
3) i promised i will not cry anymore.. I FAILED!!!
4) i promised i will not be "kpo" abt pp's things.. and i'm being an extra now..
5) i promised i will smile no matter wat happens.. i'm always glum down..
6) i promised i will concentrate on studies onli now.. but i'm not studying hard enuff..
7) i promised i will not fall i love again.. but i terribly failed..

i'm hurting myself so much now tat i hate myself so much..
y must i have those crappy rubbish in my head..
y do i have so mani wishful thinking.. daydream all day!!!

i now jus feels like torturing myself..
i feel like jus hitting the wall everyday since i don even noe wat is pain..
i wan to skip meals..
i wan no doctors..
i wan to make myself sick...
i jus feel like killing myself wid a penknife....

wo yi jing bu zhi dao wo shi shui..
yi jing bu zhi dao shen me shi dui shen me shi cuo...
wo dao di shi shui? dao di shui cai shi dui wo zhen xin de???


hmm.. okies.. this few days keep on jue shi is NOT on purpose de..
i don feel like eating lahx.. today hai hao bahx..
i got eat during recess.. after sch.. abt 2+ then eat lunch..
cuz i'm super duper angry wid my bloody sisters..
then i slp at first to cool myself down & wake up jiu feel like eating to stuff myself le..
thus eat alot.. more than i used to eat..

injured my hand.. my right hand..
after sch keep on banging my hand against the bench..
cuz i really feel like hitting something.. not the wall.. so the bench..
my hand is now bruised.. =X haha.. at first not pain de..
then after that feel better le then go touch..
/ouch.. its painful.. haha..

now very tired.. and i still haven eaten my dinner.. don feel like eating..
but i scared at night i will be hungry.. so bought a cup noodle..
but nv eat.. lolx.. sua le.. nth to do..


long story cut short..
in sch cried lahx.. think mani pp saw le.. so no use hiding it anymore..
everything happened after recess.. had enuff of the idiot guys.. and gals..
cant bear wid it anymore le.. my hand hurts.. but none of them knew..
they jus know to force their way through.. and hurting me on the other hand..
if they cant cross they scold me.. hey.. i'm a human.. i jus wan to do my job well..
cant u all jus help me? i had given u all enuff privelleges le.. i had enuff..

cried during eng.. then when do work de shi hou.. james was sleeping..
then dzarina jus say me y i nv wake him up lohx.. kao bei..
not tat i didnt wake him up.. he don wan to wake up.. my fault?
then after tat james threw my things.. idiot.. then kena again..
/slaps him
after tat go back class continue my crying thing.. lolx..
after tat hanaffe play wid me.. then much better le..
after sch.. i don noe if i should eat my lunch or not..
tat's my first meal of the day..
but i really don have appetite.. after tat think for super long.. then decide to eat..
cuz i scared i 4+ jiu hungry liao.. den die..
so ate little bit.. and very slowly.. first time..
carol they all finish le i still haven lohx.. and super slow..
after tat went library..
talk talk den xuan use comp, den go mac - raining, cant walk..

mac saw the other carol.. and jon came too..
to see carol ha de reaction when jon talk wid carol, jon came to our table..
expected, she keep on looking at us.. sort of diao us bahx..
then very scary.. haha.. then before she left she keep on looking at us..
omg.. scary.. then after tat, i asked jon how he got my email add..
and he dragged till like siao lohx.. wtf.. need like tat ma?
after tat i skipped my dinner too.. actually was hungry de liao...
but ltr lost my appetite after tat...
then at home oso think very long wan eat or not..
in the end.. no.. i didnt... so today onli ate one meal..
/clap for me
lolx.. nvm.. take it as a diet for slimming.. lolx..

o anyway.. all my fault lahx..
if i not so bad tempered then nth have happened le rite?
then all of my stupid attitude lahx.. if i not there jiu wont happen those things liao..
all my fault okie?? man yi le ma?? ai ya.. i donno lahx..
better to keep my mouth shut..
is it better?? =/


o well... today is really diaos diaos diaos.. chem test i think can pass de liao.. teacher gave almost all the ans.. so should be can lahx.. tml is the hist test le.. think gonna flunk it... in sch was okie okie.. my tummy is so damn pain lohx.. for donno wat reason.. then was like.. it came and gone and came and gone.. idiot.. its here again.. pain.. different types of pain from the others.. seh.. morning headach.. after assemble i see stars.. lolx.. then not really well lahx.. after tat better le lohx.. then is onli the tummy liao.. lolx... went home, very tired after studying at mac.. nth went in anyway.. haha..

reach home.. saw my er jie.. promised to cook dinner de.. so we all helped out... after tat she went to bath after my bathe.. then comes my da jie's bf.. and i was cutting the chicken.. durh~ nvm lohx.. i put down everything and open the door lohx.. after tat go continue cutting.. then jus wanted to continue, er jie phone rang.. i answered le lohx.. and opened the door.. so.. conclusion.. the two guest here today is their bf.. lolx.. my er jie denied... but i knew it all along... lol... so jus forget it lohx.. two lovely couples like tat.. me single.. lolx.. so weird... i mean, i'm like a light bulb like tat.. so extra.. i today morning then noe my da jie bf coming for dinner.. but i before coming home then noe my er jie bf coming... stupid idiot.. and till now she still denie abt him.. lolx.. forget it.. during the mail i jus kena shoot lohx.. nvm.. not first time..

so anyways.. i actually cut my finger while cutting the chicken.. lolx.. then is pig bleeding.. lolx.. so lame.. then the soup was quite blend.. but better than nth.. quite nice still.. after dinner i wash everything lohx.. and my jies ask the guys to do.. i mean i shy lahx.. don like guest to do those things lahx... so very weird loh... and i did it all by myself.. then ask my sis hang clothes onli oso shout at me lahx.. idiot... forget it... then really tired lohx.. imagine how mani bowls and plates are there? wtf.. okie.. i'm tired now.. and still got to iron sch u and study hist... hope i will be alright.. =X


this few days slp very late, wake up, can say still quite early... damn tired.. everyday not enuff slp.. sat night slept at 4.30am.. then sun woke up at 12... totally not enuff for me lohx.. abt 12 hrs is then really enuff for me.. sry.. i'm a pig.. haha.. went woke up do housework.. my da jie sweep the floor, er jie mop the floor and i wash the clothes.. lolx.. i'm the wash clothes aunty... haha... then after tat went my aunt hse.. cuz my mum wans her to take care of us.. so ask us over for dinner.. shun bian see we how le.. haha.. then took hist notes to study.. 4+ reach there.. then start studying... 5 read till tired.. slept.. =X and woke up at 5.45.. study little bit then play majong.. eat dinner.. lol... didnt study lohx.. no mood.. then at night after dinner... study while watching tv... its pratically nv study dao lohx..

then ytd wan 9pm go home de... my sis wan watch the show.. then she say 2 advertisement.. become the whole show.. till 10.. then 10 my biao ge also going home soon le.. so ask us wait for them.. then till 10.15 then reach left there.. reach home abt 11+.. then still need bath, iron clothes.. ask me sis help then they keep on say wait.. might as well i do it myself.. in the end i really do it myself.. =/ hahas.. then end up 12+ - 1 then slp.. today woke up at 5 to study.. then super duper tired lohx.. the pe play badminton, tired + tired... after sch withour having lunch go for cca... tired + tired + tired + hungry!!!! lolx.. haha.. now finally can rest le.. really needa a good good rest le.. hees..


ytd was racial harmony day lahx.. and crap lohx.. had so much difficulties handling the students.. cuz they were all wanting to change into their traditional costume so much.. diaos.. then after tat when its time for lesson.. all went back to their class for lesson.. and there.. the prefects go and change.. lolx.. no choice but to change lohx.. actually really really don wan wear de.. but was "compulsory" for prefects.. so bo bian.. lolx.. after tat before cme lesson, waiting for teacher to come in, i slept.. then bao bao so bad.. tou take my photo.. bad lohx... lolx.. i always slp tat time they sure take de.. T_T haha...

i look weird lahx.. very very weird.. so pai seh when we walk lohx.. lolx.. then after tat jiu quite okie le.. after tat take pics wid frens and seniors.. after sch change it out le.. haha.. feel much more comfortable.. haha.. then after tat eat lunch... and SLP.. haha... i slept in the canteen... lolx.. and this time is carol took my photo... diaos.. haha.. nvm.. but i had a good nap.. slept for 30 mins or so before my guzheng start.. haha.. but guzheng now change time le.. from 3.30 till 5.30.. seh lohx.. so miao and i left cca at 5 and went for prefects thingy.. haha..

helped to carry table and my hands are painful.. 5.30 went to change into the green tee and skirt.. okies... all abt the green tee thing is the ppg.... haha.. (powerpuff girls..) LOLX.. pai seh lahx!! erm.. the prefects sec 4 farewell party, there's a programme called the fashion show.. and they see me, miao hui and bao ling always tgt... so we became the ppg... lolx.. so tats wat abt the green tee.. haha.. had bbq before tat.. but we didnt eat anything... cuz we got no time.. and by the time we are free, there's no more food left..

so the programmes starts.. so starting is the band.. by hanaffe, nashrul and gangs lahx.. omg.. all i can say is.. hanaffe is so cool and i might jus fall in love wid him... he so shuai lohx.. lolx.. okie, i'm jus being hua chi.. lolx.. then the 2nd song is sang by sarali.. not bad.. can say is very nice.. next is mr siva speech.. funni one.. cuz the sec 4s pulled him into the toilet and gelled his hair, make him wear ankle socks, wear thick frame spects and wear flowery pants.. haha.. so funni.. but his indian curls are natural de.. so cannot spike it.. haha.. then after tat is the fashion show liao..

funni lohx.. we had jack sparrow, mini me, superman, gary in spongebob, white chicks and the ppg lahx.. lolx.. the funniest of all, i can say is the white chicks.. very funni... guys are acting niang lohx.. and they wear skirts.. mind u.. haha.. jun jie and yani.. but jun jie is the funniest de.. he really acted like a girl.. and its all so stupid.. the ppg is so damn shy lahx.. lolx.. so after the fashion show, we had the presentation done by raden and i cried lahx.. damn touched.. and i'm sad.. the sec 4s left us le.. we are all alone to survive now.. hope things will jus go on well in prefectorial board.. after tat was the night walk.. and we sabo the sec 4s.. they are all wet lahx.. haha.. and i almost made sihui fall.. i'm so sorry.. haha.. lolx.. nvm lahx.. forget it.. so the bbq ended jus like tat... after tat went to eat dinner at mac at 9.30.. abt 11++ then left for home.. 12 then reach home.. so scary in the night.. and i slept at 2.30 am.. haha.. okie.. tats it for ytd.. its too long le.. haha..

okie.. so today was quite fine.. woke up at 1.45.. haha.. pig rite? lolx.. then 2.15 like tat went out to carol there.. walk till mrt station, rmb my sis didnt burn joss stick.. then went home again.. then after tat walk back to mrt station then to sun plaza help my sis return vcd.. durh~ 3pm then go look for miao and her.. printed the photos we took ytd.. very nice.. and then 4.30 - 5 then i have my lunch.. lolx.. then super full de.. abt 6+ then start do hw.. haha.. left rc early today.. 8.30 then after tat went home.. and my sis bf at home.. lolx.. jus went home nia.. and tats all.. i'm sleepy... lolx..


today was so damn tired in sch.. morning still quite high de.. in the hall jiu getting sleepy le.. then eng lesson wan slp de.. but cant.. dzarina so fan lohx.. then chinese wan slp de.. oso cannot.. tat idiot teacher ask me and miao to cut paper for him.. cuz we two are sleeping.. then after tat better le lohx.. played a donno watever game or wat.. then very funni.. laugh till i stomach pain norhx.. haha.. crap.. after recess better le lahx.. at least can slp abit during chem.. shuang arhx.. lolx.. then ss is boring and tats all.. lolx...

after sch had the prefect's rehearsal for fri thing.. then it started super late lohx.. think got 3pm then start lohx.. idiot.. lolx.. then do the stupid "catwalk" thing... damn funni... i donno how i'm gonna survive on fri liao lohx... its in the HALL... my goodness sake.. durh~ nvm.. i'll try!! i will try no matter wat..

this few days feel alot better le.. not really sad or anything.. xiang kai hen duo le.. i don have to be sad.. as long as i'm happy and don think so much... they will be happy and i will too.. so its better to smile instead of carrying a glumy face to sch.. lolx.. tot of writing a letter to them.. to ask them things lahx.. but i haven write.. and i donno if i should write.. still thinking it.. before i regret... or even get sad when i get the replies... or things will get worst.. i'm scared... i'm a coward.. lolx.. but i really am.. well.. all i wan to do now is to study hard hard.. not to think abt other things.. or even love probs.. durh~~ i jus wanna be single.. so stop match making for me, girls.. lolx.. okie... sleepy piggy is sleeping now.. lolx..


hmm... lolx... i donno wat to say.. say sat bahx... went to carol RC there... bao ling and miao hui was there already when i reached.. then carol told us Zen was coming.. erm.. Zen was the shuai shuai teacher who used to teach in my sch.. lolx.. but he's gone now.. haha.. k.. back to topic.. so he came and was shoot by bao.. say his shorts too short.. haha.. but 3 out of the 5 of us are wearing yellow.. lolx.. and the other 2 wore black.. lame huh? so yellowish tat day.. then afte tat eat lunch do hw.. eat lunch half way then hui aun ( if didnt spell wrong ), wan li and jacky came.. they are working and came to look for us to slack.. and they slack the whole day.. haha... then 5+ Zen and bao went home.. 6pm the guys went back to company.. lolx.. then left the 3 of us.. then comes the Jon.. opps.. lolx.. look for carol de.. and we had FUN!!! lol.. its fun but got a bit bad lahx.. haha.. 10+ - 11 then go home.. cool.. lolx

sun actually wanna go cycling wid carol and miao de.. in the end my mum don let me go.. so didnt go.. then miao say too tired le.. so oso didnt go.. in the end carol went wid ming quan and jacky.. in the end.. the lu bai chi ( lol ) carol got the wrong place.. sembawang beach don have bicycle rental de.. so they didnt go le lohx.. haha.. then nowhere to go in the end come sembawang find me.. then come my hse.. my hse very boring lohx.. they all almost fell aslp.. until i let jacky use comp.. he play maple.. durh~ and then not so sian le lohx.. 8 go dinner.. 9.30 come home.. 12+ then slp.. lolx..

today mahx.. FUN!!! too bad elrin din managed to join in much... er family went partyworld.. after elrin's listening.. it was 4 when we reach there.. and the room was booked till 8.. late hor?? and actually we tot of going off early de.. but in the end got stay lohx.. elrin joined us for abt 15 mins then she go le.. so sad.. finally we can all go out tgt without guy's present.. and elrin had to go.. =( nvm.. we will sure got the next time to go out again without guys de.. SURE WILL!!! lol.. and we had fun there lahx.. starting very quite.. after tat then high liao.. bao went back at abt 6.30 and the rest of us 8.. the person lost our bills lohx.. idiot.. haha.. whatever.. but we had fun... actually we wan to shout till tml no voice.. but din managed lohx.. no fun.. lolx.. haha.. anyways.. i'm very tired now..

hmm.. still quite good lahx.. everyday got activities de.. but my parents are going taiwan le.. 3 more days... sad!! i'll miss them.. miss their naggings.. surprise rite?? but i will... ming quan scare me wid those stupid scary things that he met when he was in taiwan... wan i'm very worried now.. hope nth will happen!!!! god bless.. 3 more days and i will have to be independent le.. today morning my mum taught me how to operate the washing machine.. and reminding things already.. saying like she's going to leave me forever like tat.. i'm so sad.. durh~ i'm so stupid.. k le. wan slp le..


o well well.. sat.. went to do hw wid carol and miao at rc.. quite fun... okie lahx.. hai hao.. erm.. then sing in the room while doing work.. like mad pp sia.. lol.. then scolded keng yang.. cuz he's unreasonable.. then 9.30 go eat dinner.. 10.30 go home.. reach home, bath, watch show, online, slp...

sunday went to cut hair.. came home slp.. then at night watch show.. slp..

today.. okie.. alot to talk.. quite a bad day.. can say is.. morning do duty.. first step into the class, kena scolded by chee siong le.. he in bad mood bahx.. then after tat open the side door for them oso kena scold by him.. but i'm alright bahx.. think he in bad mood tats y like tat de.. then miao seemed in a bad mood.. asked her if she okie or not.. she keep on say nth.. then finally shouted at me le.. sad.. i think i had better not talked le.. whenever i talk sure got prob de.. sure will kena scold de lohx.. then today got peer tutoring.. seh.. last group de leader.. and stood there like idiot to wait for my turn.. so pai seh.. then was in a group wid Iylia and wendy.. think still got kim young.. then Iylia ask me maths.. i was like.. very blur lohx.. i explained le.. but they don understand.. and in the end i say till i oso donno wat i talking.. to be serious.. i was very sad.. i'm suppose to be teaching them and helping them.. in the end i feel so useless and donno y.. okie.. tears jus came out.. silly arent i? i feeling like an idiot.. crying jus becuz of this kind of things.. after lesson sze zhen irritated me and i jus scolded him.. i'm really sad!!!!!! y should i scold pp? i shouldnt!!! after dance, went to join carol and miao, wid xuan.. they go eat dinner.. carol seemed to have probs.. but i'm not being told.. nvm abt tat.. but i was scared tat if they talked to me abt it and question marks all over my head, they will pek cek again.. jus now was once again.. they went pek cek talking to me again... i really didnt meant to do it.. i don mean to be so blur.. oso didnt mean to not to catch their words.. i'm really sorry.. i tried not to talk so u all wont be seh le.. i tried.. but u all say i too quite.. then wat should i do?!


last few days, nth much.. changed duty, morning do sec 2 de.. recess no duty.. after recess, hall, sec 4/6 - 4/9.. being di siao by 4/9 pp.. seh~ but its quite fun though.. in class, very slpy.. happiest day, ytd.. during eng lesson play wid james.. then i make all the noises but i'm not being scolded.. then whole day quite siao siao de..

don talk last few days le.. talk abt today.. bad day bahx.. quite good in the morning.. after recess still okie.. sch ends at 12.. went to prefect's room for photo-taking.. for sec 4 de.. everything ends at abt 12.30.. walk to admiralty have lunch.. jus got out of sch got little bit seh lahx.. but used to it le.. don wan talk details here.. after lunch went elrin hse.. put bag then go 309 de playground.. marsiling there.. got swing.. and i feel like playing.. had fun after tat.. tried to learn to ride a bike.. but didnt managed.. next time i swear.. i will learn it... then till 5+ go her hse.. listen to songs.. and elrin talked abt her sis.. i almost cried.. don wan talk details.. after tat watch green light at her hse.. didnt call my mum to tell her i'll be home late.. nvm abt tat.. then kena scolded at around 8+.. still outside.. then before reach mrt station seh again.. don wan talk details here.. reach home still okie okie.. mum jus nagged and surprisingly, i'm not angry...

today my blog abit of nth nth de lohx.. seh is like tat de.. anyways, i'm used to it.. i noe wat u mean.. but i jus don wanna hear it.. somemore admitted smth me myself donno is the truth or not.. watever.. really don wan talk details de liao..


lolx... now at carol's hse.. later going to care corner le.. lolx.. haiz... sian diao lohx.. 20th july my parents going overseas le.. no one to acc me le.. it will be so bored.. my sis is usually not at home.. if my parents oso not at home then i will be all alone le.. T_T i really didnt wan them to leave.. no dinner, no pp help to wash clothes, no pp to pei me talk... =X y did they have to leave so soon??

sian diao... smth terrible happened to my darling carol.. so sad.. see her like tat really donno wat to do le lohx... haiz.. didnt expect such thing to happen bahx.. well.. lucky i'm not in this kind of stead.. anyway, i wanna change my song.. a very nice song.. donno can or not.. the programme is always sot sot de..

anyone can talk to me?!?! i really hope i will be needed by pp bahx... and i hope i will have pp when i need them... seh~ o ya.. btw.. my sis bought a bikini.. i sian diao lohx.. she keep on spend money this few months... ever since she started to work.. seh~~ she's mad le.. haha.. watever.. gtg le.. bye bye.. =]


mm.. irritating.. no dinner for me tonight jus becuz of my stupid sister.. its her again!! idiot.. jus told ah ma i'm fine and all.. no probs wid my sis or family.. and there goes my sis again... i'm hungry!! T_T forget it.. i'll jus cook a maggie and eat.. tats going to be my dinner again...

jus watch finish "devil beside you" .. its very nice.. so cute but lame show.. lol.. trying to occupy myself wid shows so tat i wont daydream anymore le bahx.. i don wan to daydream abt none realistic things again.. so.. lol.. i jus love the love story in all shows.. its so romantic.. =X hmm.. boring day.. and i haven even touched my hw.. how am i going to hand in on tues.. tml still going out.. dead meat...

going to meet the carecorner/camp instructors again le.. miss them lots.. hope tml one will not be as boring as the last time i went bahx.. =] hmm.. i'm terribly hungry.. go cook a noodle now... bb.. =]

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