Monday, July 10, 2006
you shi seh seh de yi tian
o well well.. sat.. went to do hw wid carol and miao at rc.. quite fun... okie lahx.. hai hao.. erm.. then sing in the room while doing work.. like mad pp sia.. lol.. then scolded keng yang.. cuz he's unreasonable.. then 9.30 go eat dinner.. 10.30 go home.. reach home, bath, watch show, online, slp...
sunday went to cut hair.. came home slp.. then at night watch show.. slp..
today.. okie.. alot to talk.. quite a bad day.. can say is.. morning do duty.. first step into the class, kena scolded by chee siong le.. he in bad mood bahx.. then after tat open the side door for them oso kena scold by him.. but i'm alright bahx.. think he in bad mood tats y like tat de.. then miao seemed in a bad mood.. asked her if she okie or not.. she keep on say nth.. then finally shouted at me le.. sad.. i think i had better not talked le.. whenever i talk sure got prob de.. sure will kena scold de lohx.. then today got peer tutoring.. seh.. last group de leader.. and stood there like idiot to wait for my turn.. so pai seh.. then was in a group wid Iylia and wendy.. think still got kim young.. then Iylia ask me maths.. i was like.. very blur lohx.. i explained le.. but they don understand.. and in the end i say till i oso donno wat i talking.. to be serious.. i was very sad.. i'm suppose to be teaching them and helping them.. in the end i feel so useless and donno y.. okie.. tears jus came out.. silly arent i? i feeling like an idiot.. crying jus becuz of this kind of things.. after lesson sze zhen irritated me and i jus scolded him.. i'm really sad!!!!!! y should i scold pp? i shouldnt!!! after dance, went to join carol and miao, wid xuan.. they go eat dinner.. carol seemed to have probs.. but i'm not being told.. nvm abt tat.. but i was scared tat if they talked to me abt it and question marks all over my head, they will pek cek again.. jus now was once again.. they went pek cek talking to me again... i really didnt meant to do it.. i don mean to be so blur.. oso didnt mean to not to catch their words.. i'm really sorry.. i tried not to talk so u all wont be seh le.. i tried.. but u all say i too quite.. then wat should i do?!
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