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Monday, October 30, 2006

aaaha..
i'm pretty mad now! woohoo

ytd was staying at home for the whole afternoon. BORING!!
woke up at 12+. do things till 1, then watch prison break till.... 5 i think.
i din had my lunch, was not really hungry at all.
guess i've been eating too much this few days, so my stomach is full most of the time.
was a little hungry at 3+. but i bear wid it! yeah.
drank a cup of tea and lots of plain water -- my lunch.

my ye ye came my house and we went for dinner at.... unknown. haha
the purpose for this dinner is to accompany him to eat.
mainly to celebrate my er jie de bday.
THE FREAK'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING!! OMG.
i haven bought her anything.
she treat me $70 to dinner and its so expensive and now i have to buy something thats not cheap. hey, i din work okie..
die.. gonna save up all my money to buy her present. cannot eat le!!! =X

anyway, i'm going on diet for next year's syf.
the costume is.. hais.. don wanna talk about it. jus got to....... JIAN FEI!!!!
well, today's dance was rather tiring.
i sweat like a pig, jus bath finish like tat. lol
but its fun today. cant catch up wid the steps onli.
i feel so unlucky cus i have to do all those movements i don used to do and its now hurting my joints, my backbones and bla bla.
*yawns* okie.. i'm tired. go bath first, update more next time!!! =DD

3:40 AM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

I'm going to become a pig soon.
lol. As time pass, maybe a HIPPO!! haha

Well, today was a rather boring day for me, another boring one.
Slept till 1pm, woke up and had lunch with my dad and reached home at about 2.30.
I had trouble signing in to MSN thus went to play O2JAM.
O2JAM is frigging lag, ended up playing for awhile only.
Cant use MSN, cant go blogging, cant play games....
Forget it, offline and went to my sweet bed, off to dream at 4.
Told my dad i will be waking up at 6, but he said with confidence that i will only wake up at 8.
True enough, i woke up at 8. LOL!
Okie, i lost.. lol.

Woke up, asked for the comp, and online.
Knew a new guy in MSN, chatted with him and added him in friendster. ( he added me. )
Had a nice chat cus i was rather bored at that moment.
He was a pretty nice guy to chat with and, good looking i suppose. =X
And he wrote me testi, fun fun...

Had dinner at 10.30 and was full now.
My dad just called back to see if i'm hungry.
I let my da jie update her blog and she signed out my msn, then she used till now then let me use. Good sister huh. lol
Nobody is online now, pretty bored.
My baobei didi still not in his dream yet, must scold le. LOL
K le. Got nth much to write, wanna watch Prison Break le. =D

9:58 AM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

hmm.. ytd was finally the last day of school.
although i still got to go back in the holidays, it jus made me less stressed.
now, its time for me to say the overall things happened.

things were worst than last year? should i say that?
hmm.. i'm quite stressed up this year, about the new subjects we are taking.
i cant really cope with the subjects and scored quite poorly this year.
my mum said i deproved alot from last year. i hope i'll catch up soon.

i've been left in a isolate world for alot of time this year.
people talk among themselves, neglecting the girl at the back, walking alone.
they walk away on their own, leaving the girl alone to catch up.
they share secrets among themselves and left the girl to be kept unknown.
the pressence of the girl is just like a blue pen among other blue pens in ur pencil box.
this blue pen is a free gift and is a lousy pen that people dont like to use.
this pen is only used when the person have got no other pen to use, then the person will consider to use it or not.
the pen also dont understand what it had done.
its also just like other normal pen, a useable pen.
just somehow people will just do some things so sudden, a 180 degree change, the pen also dont know what to do.
they will never knew what the pen is unhappy about.
but i'm really glad that they dont do it everytime, jus sometimes.
they still cares for me.

another one is the love prob....
in school, i'm being "thrown" the responsible to take care of ***.
*** is not mine, its ****'s.
somethings are too obvious to be seen. many people can see it, dont they?
maybe there are just some things that i dont understand.
but whatever it is, i shouldnt be given this responsibility to take care of whatever ***'s stuff.
y did **** always wants me to help ***, accompany *** when *** is lonely and stuff like that??
i'm *** friend only, not ***'s whoever.
only if *** is really someone to me or i am someone to ***, i dont see any reason y i should do all this stffs.
outside school..... forget it. dont wanna say anymore.

this should be the overall things.
dont want to update anymore...
i'll update more next time.

10:03 PM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

ytd went to work, doing surveys in blocks, running around..
was quite a tiring job, but overall still okie, i can manage.
was like a freak working ytd. kept on wanted to cont.
at circuit road i did 2 at first, miao did 2 and carol did 3.
after the break we each took 2 blks.
they din get any, but i've got 3. lucky nia.
then gave one to miao. then went for break.

went aljunied after the break, i've got no luck there.
din do much? but its quite good for carol and miao.
they did quite alot. good for them. haha.
i even kena scolding when i did one, sad. =X
in the end of the day i did 9, miao and carol did 8.
aun helped me alot!! all thx to him that i did 9.
aug did 15. very good lohx. some more he went away halfway and came back after tat.

hmm, i din eat much food ytd. morning 8+ - 9 like tat ate a bowl of noodles.
4+ ate fries. tats all for the day. lol. then stomach was pain in the night. abt 9+? lol
was conducting a survey, and its painful. aun helped me to cont.
he speak faster. and it was rather quick. lol. thanks for helping me. =]

quite sad ytd de. lol. not say sad lahx.
i tot no one is going to watch deathnote le.
cus a group of us already said we going on fri le.
but in the end some went ytd. so, like tat lohx. but i'm going wid fang tml.
so it alright. =)
going home was like, i donno how to say.
rather lonely de. got a bit felt like being left out. din noe wat happen.
i donno wat i did wrong, jus kind of felt being left out.
went home at 10+. reach home at 12. bath and wait for my hair to dry, 1 then slp.

today was sleeping in the class for almost the whole day.
frigging tired. and, maybe sickness from the night before, was not feeling quite happy too.
maybe i talking alien language and tat most of them don understand wat i am talking bahx.
maybe i din talk properly and they don understand bahx.
but i'm gonna be alright, i think i can.
tml getting report book le. quite worried tat my results will drop alot.
later kena scold jiu die le. then tml i going to watch deathnote.
hais, should end here le. frigging tired. i'm gonna slp soon.
and i', not in the mood to even cont using.........

7:13 AM

Monday, October 23, 2006

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!
I JUST NEED TO BE ALONE, ALL ALONE.

i din even noe what is on my mind, why am i in such a bad mood??
i shouldnt be thinking about the pass..
i should just let him go, get away as far as possible.
i don wan to have anythings related to him!
this holidays came just in time. i should go out and work.
at least it could keep me occupied and stop thinking about him.
its really hurting me too much! i cant stop the tears from coming down.
tml is jus the time, to start work. i cant lose this opportunity to work.
tml is the last day for the job le. really got to decide properly.

anyway, i really love fang now, i loved her always.
she's such a good friend. had a nice chat with her at dance today.
she's my boyfriend/girlfriend.
i really may become a les becus of u.
please don let me be one and jus stay away from me.
go to her if u wan! i don care, i don give a bloody damn hell..
going mad becus of u. argh!!!

kimkiat~
din mean to really ask u go die de lahx..
really sorry. really not in the mood to even think properly.
sorry yar? don be upset!
i'm fine anyway, don worry.

7:33 AM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

today was supposingly to go for the prefects gathering at mr siva house.
last min din go, cus i was told tat mr siva only invited the sec 4s only today.
is the sec 4s ask us to go de bahx.
miaohui felt it kinda weird. so we decide not to go and go shopping on our own.
we asked carol along and went to repair my mp3 and take her phone.
decide to go shopping after tat. but, it doesnt seem tat we got time to shop huh?
my mp3 is taking alot of today's time.
went alot places jus for my mp3. T_T
in the end its still not done yet.. sad

we are all quite bored and tired bahx.
low for the whole day.
they two kept on smsing. i got no one to sms to.
in the end keep on talking to myself, cus no one answered me. =.=
when going back to cwp, the trip was real fast. cus i am busy drawing.
and they are improving it for me, giving comments.
time thus passed very quickly.
and i completed one art piece again! yea

many memories came back today.
every little thing we do reminds me of somethings which should be forgotten by now.
carol said it was all xi guan. i din really forget wat i'm suppose to forget.
i hope its not so. i really hope i have forgotten wat i am suppose to forget. hais
this whole thing caused my mood in the night to be rather low.
din really have the mood to even talk about things now.
I AM SAD!!! hais.

7:21 AM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

today is real bored for me.
woke up at 12. went to eat lunch wid dad at 1.30.
came home at about 3.
sang KTV alone. pathetic. cus my sis is checking virus. so cannot use.
6 its ready. came online. bored. nth to do.
played o2jam. about 7.30 off it, its real laggy.
watched "it started with a kiss". ( i'm still watching it! )
lag and lag and lag. very pek cek. refresh it to make it work.
at the same time, updating my friendster profile.
xuan asked me to do it.. lol.
the show keep on stopping, so i closed it without finishing it. LAGGY!!!!!
did my profile till now. finally done.

i'm bloody hungry! my stupid sis din ans my call, nvm.
she said she hanged it up cus she's eating and her hands are dirty.
and she jolly well forgot to return me the call. there, i'm without food.
was about to call my mum to ask her buy something for me.
about to go to the phone and... *the sound of keys*
hope lost. lol. there, i'm without food again.
everyone's home now. but my da jie wanted to eat something.
so i'm going to share the maggie wid her! yea!
thats how my day ended. boring rite?

10:44 AM

Friday, October 20, 2006

today was the thinking fiesta for the lower sec.
hmm.. can say its quite tiring bahx.. but i had fun before recess.
i took half of 2/3 and 2/7. and some 1/8 people.
the people are so cute! i can really say tat.
though they keep on giving troubles.
but they will cooperate and play wid me when i tell them a few more times.
the malay guys are always crapping and the chinese guys are jokers.
they are giving me so lots of fun and i really enjoyed my day wid them.

after recess was like, horrible.
the 2/5 people are, TROUBLE MAKERS.
they jus cant get instructions into their heads, no matter wat.
and watever u say, they will just hack care and do in the opposite way.
i'm so frustrated by their stupid attitudes.
tried to be kind to them but they nv appreciate, unlike 1/8, 2/3 and 2/7.
they are really kind people.

whats more.... my group IC is so ~~wonderful~~ that he just kindly threw the whole job of being a IC to me.
well done huh. i'm freaking tired for the whole day.
i lead the classes.
i shouted to speak to them.
i tell them the instructions.
i walked around the places where to students will be to help them if they have any qns.
what is my IC and others doing??
staying in a room only, sitting on the chair looking at them. EYE POWER!
get tgt to talk, ignoring wat the students are doing.
not doing anything, jus hanging around the students.

WTF. not tat i'm stopping them from doing anything they like.
but can they bloody hell jus help me when i cant handle?
at least help out a little and i'll be super duper bloody thankful!
grrr. going mad. i'm not going to say anymore.
i making myself frustrated.
anyway, i really loved the 1/8, 2/3 and 2/7 people.
i think i'm going to miss them.

i had fun seeing how all the station works. its real cool to see the balloon fly high.
i'm enjoying wid the kids. vanessa gave me a softened potato chip. haha.
it taste ew. lol. the storyboard was funny. and the explodex was so stupid. maths de. haha.
the pieces of the past and present so lame. lol. but good lahx.
got air con de.. haha. somemore boy boy gave me one of the presen his group got.

after sch i was totally fed up. elrin "cooled" me down wid her cold hands. lolx.
then ate lunch wid miaohui, zhixuan and baoling.
then baoling went for chior. then wei xiang was wid us.
i became his mama like tat. he ate bee hoon but din noe how to use chopsticks.
so i helped him to put the bee hoon on his spoon and he eat.
really looked like his mama feeding him. lol
after lunch, went to a mac and sat there for nth. haha.
took out my book to draw and then ate ice cream. yummy
sat there till 6 then go home. haha. longest ever.
boy boy wei xiang was so cute! he looked like a kid.
158 de. must really grow taller le.. haha
hmm.. tats all for today bahx.

6:40 AM

Thursday, October 19, 2006

VIVO CITY IS VERY BIG!
jus for your information.

today 5 ER's went there. haha. miao, xuan, carol, bao and me.
its without elrin again. missed going out wid her.
lunch is supposed to be settled on our own.
but in the end.. all settled at SUN PLAZA.
take note: SUN PLAZA
i'm so bored eating sun plaza's food. argh! haha.
miao and carol came my hse first, cus bao woke up at 10+ when we are suppose to meet at 11.

lol.. okie. after lunch, we went NTUC. haha..
we bought lots of cookies, sweets and drinks.
like going for picnic sia. lol okie.

first place we went when we reached there. CANDY EMPIRE!
the whole big shop is full of candies and chocolate!
some chocolates are not sold in other places. looks yummy!

then to the toilet.
the tap is supposed to be auto one. and bao hit the tap twice ( on the top, pls imagine )
then she looked at xuan. haha!
she din know it was auto de.
and she hit it so hard for two times!
haha then we all went luffing. cus its really loud! haha..

then started our shopping. the haze spoiled the mood. so sad. lolx.
walked awhile only and carol is meeting Ben.
then we sat on a "chair" when carol go look for him.
i was so bored, so took out my mini chips more to eat. =X
i jus said "i'm going to open le" and woohoo. half of the packet dropped on my bag!
haha. i was so clumsy. and its all so funny.

next stop: toy r' us ( if not wrong )
i'm like a person without childhood.
i've got so many things tat i din play in the past. lolx
we had lots of fun in there.
i took the toy spider and scare baoling. she got scared. think becus its ticklish. haha.
then i was luffing like hell.
and we saw lots of toys! they were so cute and pretty!!
the kids nowadays are really xin fu.
still got some kind of computer thingy.
we stayed and played it!! can u imagine? lol
stayed at toy r' us for more than 30 mins i think. haha.
before we left, went to see the thomas train. donno wats tat called.
see, i told u i don have childhood. haha
then xuan touched the train and it fell. and sort of broken. so scary!
we left immediately. and she said she's guilty after tat..
i'm shocked and looks more worried than she is. =X

after shopping so quite awhile..... bao was hungry cus she din eat at SP.
so we went long john. i was doing nth, so i jus stared blankly on the table.
stupid. i've been doing it for many times.
only bao ate. and Ben and carol. they at another table, so i said onli bao.
miao tot bao said she's full alr before she even finish eating one piece.
and she looked at her, so stunned. then we all luffed like hell.
she's blur and funny. keep on hear wrong things. lolx

when we are abt to leave, miao went out through a hole. haha.
it seems tat she had fun coming out of the whole. cus its funny.
then bao oso came out from there, keep on thinking she cant. lolx.
she did come out of it.

then went to shop for the last few shops before we leave.
bao needa go home early.
bought a pair of earrings wid bao and miao. its 3 for $10.
so we bought it tgt. carol want too.. but too bad gal.. lolx. no offence.
then went back causeway. they taught me the chinese name of it. so fun!

went back. took neoprints! pretty ones.. its so nice. love it so much.

took once and then went for dinner at mos after sending bao home.
then went to took another. haha. cus its so fun and nice!

before going home, carol asked Ben to help us buy breezer.
din want to drink de. cus no money.
in the end shared wid miao.
i'm drinking it like plain water. cus i feel its really nth de.
5% only, like drinking soft drinks and i wont get drunk. lol
but its the first time miao is drinking. but i really drank alot from the bottle.
then went home le bahx.
the whole day was quite fun. love going out with the girls.
we'll go again next time okie? haha
i keep on trying to break my "snake"s records when i'm bored.

oh! forgot to say.
I BROKE MR SIN KIM KIAT RECORD OF 503 TO 603.
its 100 diff. Mr sin. haha. =Pp

7:24 AM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

i'm mad! totally mad!
i dont even know what i am doing.

today went to watch world trade center after school.
not too bad lahx.. quite nice, bored at some parts and touching! lol

i'm spending too much money. this is the 2nd movie i watched this week.
this one i pay it myself. the previous one was treated by da jie. hees

deathnote's gonna be out tml!
so qi dai.

holidays are coming. gonna go out wid ivan they all.. <3
this is what are friends for.. always be there for me.. love him lots! opps. =X
hao sister bu jie yi bahx.. haha

have been drawing in my blue book this few days.
i'm mad. jus wanna draw.

and my greatest achievement is the "thousand words compo". i named it.
its nice lahx. but nobody's going to read it or touch it.
u'll be beheaded if u are caught doing so. haha

shall end here. bloody sister making noises again.
tml going to vivo city. shopping!
sunday got prefects' gathering. <3

6:50 AM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

sunday:
i dont know what hit my nerves. An i'm mad.
I PACKED MY BLOODY MESSY TABLE!

that was rather suprising. i dont do that unless i'm being forced.
but NO. i did it willingly that day.
found many silly things i had in the past.
i actually wrote letters with my p-sch friends.
i read one, from hui wen, the one who left a scar on my hand.
i'll always remember her.
we wrote rubbish and craps. even gave letter sheets to each other.
i nearly forgot it. its kind of letter pads. and give lots lots to each other.
other discovery, stupid useless ugly decorative items in my cupboard.
my mum threw all of them away. its not really tat ugly. some are cute!
then for the whole day, i packed my room and forgot my lunch. ~~cool!~~
only had dinner, my first meal, in the night.
but know what? my table is still messy!!

monday:
pe was fun. played badminton.
miao said i made alot of noise while playing. true. =X
mrs lim saw me and told me a ~~good news.~~

mrs lim: " weiting, just to inform you, guzheng is resumed this friday."
me: *turns and pick the shuttle cork. trying to ignore her.* "orh"

grrr.. i dont want to go anymore.
why cant she just IMAGINE that i'm not in this cca?

got back papers.
english - fortunately i passed. 28/50
history - failed. but will be pulled up to pass as heard. 24/50
physics - failed terribly that i dont even bother to rmb how much i got. think 41/100
a maths - still considered okie. 54/80 ( but i can do better if i'm not careless. )

saw mr yap after sch. he talked to me.
mr yap: "weiting, what happen to you huh?"
me: *giving the kind of donno face*
mr yap: "u and ur group of friends are all getting almost the same results, y huh?"
me: "who?"
mr yap: "baoling also, miao~~~ hui also. u all din study or donno the concept?"
me: "donno lehx. got study. should be donno concept."
mr yap: "i think i need to have extra lessons with ur class. more than the 2 weeks."
me: "orh"
mr yap: *go off when he saw xuan coming out from the toilet*
me: *off i go for dance*

dance was like hell. actually intended to fake illness and just sit by the side and look.
but i din cus i'm a ~~good~~ girl.
tried doing cartwheel and hand stand.
i swear. i seriously CANT do it!! =X
and its tiring. next week we are still going to do that.
learned new steps. my shoulders are all aching. my right arm is in great pain.
my right arm got kind of red red thingy. and its painful jus by touching it.
i'm going to give it up soon. but i wont. i'll hang on.

went to watch movie with my mum, da jie, biao ge and his officially wife.
Rob-B-Hood again. i'm not paying for it. and its nice. so don mind watching again.
regret and din regret. regret cus i wasted my sleeping time.
din regret cus the baby is super cute!
at the end the show did say the baby's name. "lee jia xin" if i'm not wrong.
or whatever the name is, the name is the richest man's name. in hong kong if i'm not wrong.
its so nice~!

today:
nth much. got back papers.
e maths - 84/100 ( well done huh )
chinese - 73/100 ( well done also )
chemistry - 53/100 ( phew! lucky i passed. leon cheated me. said i failed. )
ss - 70/100 ( not too bad. )

went home early. 3+ reached home alr.
took a nap. intended to wake up at 5.
in the end woke up at 7+.
slept for 4 hrs or so. but still, i'm tired.
mum went out. she din cook tonight. and i'm hungry now.
got to go and cook for myself alr! i'm lazy!
but still, to keep myself alive, i must eat.

5:25 AM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

o.. its finally end of all the exams le.
eh. i'm trying to cut down the dots i'm having. jiayou!! lol

exams:
i'm quite STRESSED over it.
everyday exams, exams, and exams.
weekdays go lib, weekends go RC, din even have time to relax and use comp.
reason for not blogging. lol.
i'm scared. i'm scared tat i will flunk all the tests and got retained.
i don wan to be retained. *praying hard*

after exams:
hmm.. so happy and relaxed.
but i'm now worried abt the results. *cross fingers*
wat if i made my parents disappointed again???? omg.
but the girls (us) went partyworld tat day to "celebrate".
was quite a moody day bahx.
carol went home, xuan came and meet us. (she got no paper tat day.)
miao, bao and me in sch u..
went there awhile, bored. all of us de mood quite down de.
steph and her volleyball girls were jus opps us.
they were so high and we were all so low. haha!
then i went to their room for awhile, and i came out high.
went back to the room, still low. =.=
but overall still counted okie bahx. elrin din come as promised. nvm bahx..
went home early to watch korean vcd, somemore not feeling well.
my sis got to return it on sat, so i onli got 2 day to finish 16 CDs. omg!!!
then i watched 6 CDs on thurs. i'm so pro!!!!!

marking day:
woke up at ard 1 plus. i'm still sleepy when i woke up.
went to watch the CDs le. my sis was watching it in the living room.
so i watched in my mum's room. we were watching different episodes. =X
i stayed almost the whole day in the room. watching the show.
lunch and dinner settled in the room too. =X lol
everything in the room. cool huh..
in the night was abit low and moody.
the show reminded me of some unhappy things. and begin to rmb even more.
hais
life is always like tat.
after tat...... i think i lost my temper very easily bahx.
watever. sorry if i really lost temper and make u angry/sad.
slept at 3am. damn tired. and i finished all the 16 CDs. *hip-hip-hurray*

today:
my day sux like hell. eh... not tat bad actually.
suppose to wake up at 8. my mum woke me and my sis at 9.
i din noe it. i'm asleep like a dead pig and heard nth.
my sis woke up and talked to her le.
but she always waited for me to wake up then she wan to wake up.
hais. its complicated.
my mum dashed into my room and scolded my sis. =X
i'm not scolded. cuz i'm INNOCENT!! haha..
then i'm done bathing at 10. and we are suppose to go out at 10.
my mum was super angry.
then at 10.30 she jus opened the door and wanted to go out w/o us. =X
she always does tat. then we will all rush like hell. haha.
was fine at first. but qurrelled. she keep on saying things tat are irritating.
i donno how to describe them. but she ever does tat in the public again, i swear,
I'M GOING TO SLAP HER IN THE PUBLIC W/O EVEN TREATING HER AS MY SIS.
then went my grandfather hse and go buy her stuffs.
helped her to carry the bloody heavy (donno wat tat called) in bugis!!!
w/o any reward. haha.. jk.. but its real heavy. all i can say.
then went home slp le lohx.

plans:
going to watch all the shows in youtube tat i haven finish.
got lots and lots. and got to finish them before i go on to another show.
yeah!!
and.... its jus a perfect time for me to forget him bahx.
i din wan to carry on like tat. it jus breaks my heart.
i'm going to overwork myself to keep on occupied bahx.
nth can stop me. unless ~~u love me~~??
as carol said, she's tired in another world and wanted to stay in this world first.
but i'm tired of this world and wanted to go into another world.
tat maybe wat i'm really thinking of now bahx.
i'm being killed by u once and again. i don wan it to happen anymore.
so pls don come near me.

k le.. its a long post.. stop here bahx. post next time. =)

8:56 AM